In the end he lets her go, partly since at the conclusion of the day he continue to enjoys his spouse too much to very seriously feel of leaving her and partly for the reason that he didn't want the war to dictate his everyday living any more than it presently did - leaving his wife and kid for a lady he satisfied on the frontline would mean he could by no means leave the horrors he'd recognised there guiding him.
In my encounter, just one matures into this, but I believe it is critical to wean oneself off clinging to previous satori, for the reason that the flash-like mother nature of these types of insights can lead to you regularly anticipating one thing like that, which has the outcome of disguising what is there all the time. Beyond that, it truly is dogma.