Desiring 'an understanding' suggests just seeking to get a way to put it, a type of text, it is not essentially a knowing of any kind, it is just a way to chat about it. One knows absolutely nothing in pleasure, in despair there is the burden of being aware of every little thing. Otherwise, know very little. Nothing else is truly worth figuring out, for all there is no God but me, immune to adjust, omnipotent only in sacrifice.